Crunched

This is definitely one of the most challenging periods of my life. I’m trying to find a place to live and move into within the next two weeks (this will be my 4th in a year), record and launch a web video and earn enough money that I don’t keep dipping into overdraft “protection” (at 24% interest, it feels more like extortion, but I guess it’s my “choice”).

I love living in San Francisco, and can’t imagine living anywhere else (I am looking in the East Bay). But two bedroom apartments START at $1600/month. I keep seeing 2Br’s for 3k-5k. I guess there are lots of people who make enough money to afford that. Waaayyy beyond me, though, that’s for sure.

I just talked to the animator for the video and he says he can’t make the Veteran’s Day deadline, which while I understand and support his reasoning, still sucks ’cause when is a *better* time to release an anti-war song that also honors our troops? Fundraising has not gone as well as I need, either.

I’m ready to take to the streets and start playing for change. Seriously. I’m actually looking forward to that, ’cause Haight-Ashbury is two blocks away from my current place. The person I’m subletting for comes back in a few days and is cool with sleeping on the couch in the front room, and I’m feeling worlds of pressure to find a home so I can get on with the business of making music. It’s all feeling a little, ok a LOT overwhelming right now.

I’m just a walking ball of stress. I look and feel like shit. This year has been pretty exhausting. It’s addded many strands of grey to the noggin, too.