The Daily Tide

goes in… goes out…. the bay is swollen with life, then drained. Then swollen again, all in phase with the passing of the moon. Such is life, too, huh? Sometimes I’m feeling totally strapped and stressed, and then some time later, I’m feeling abundance, gratitutde and excitement. Sometimes in the same day.

In the last few months, I’ve taken on a project I’m calling “Getting My Act Together”. I don’t remember if I’ve written about it. It’s basically developing the materials I need to show up in the world as a professional musician. New website, media kit, demo/album, etc.. The show on the 24th is the culmination of this project.

It’s been a huge undertaking, and I’m definitely living on my edge. Almost every day I’m being challenged (and blessed) in one way or another. Today’s challenge is not allowing the fact that I don’t have a bass player committed to the project overwhelm me. And letting go of feeling like I’m not doing enough to get this really, really, really important puzzle piece located and locked down. I’m also feeling challenged by not having enough cycles to rehearse as much as I should. I know that to be “great” at anything takes daily discipline. And lately, I’ve literally not had the time or energy. I’ve worked 300% more hours in the last 4 weeks than my average. As an hourly employee, that’s great – I’m making a good nut (to finance production expenses, no doubt), but I’m also a) not getting enough sleep (thereby putting my back at risk for tweakin’ on me – a very undesirable thing at this or any point), and b) completely exhausted (like fall asleep when I sit down to check email at the end of the day at midnight or so). More opportunity to “let go” and do the best I can. In a way, it all feels perfect. Rain’s comin’, which’ll mean I’ll have little work to do EXCEPT rehearse.

got off work a few hours early (my first break in two weeks) and spent the afternoon de-cluttering from a few weeks of intense schedule, played a little, wrote a little, found two very hot bass leads, got a guitarist I’m itching to play with commit to coming to rehearsal on Saturday, and generally got things organized.

I’m still running at top speed, but it feels good to have had a few hours to take care of the background/environment around me such that I’m not living/writing amidst clutter and the remnants of an extremely busy life lately.

Back to it!